It looks like I have never learned.
The same mistakes, same actions, same feelings, and thoughts lead me to depression, to this black hole in the nowhere land, aimless disappearing from this world.
Life continues for everybody but for me, because I’ve chosen it to be like this.
I get lost, once again, 'trying to understand' I used to say, but now I know is to forget about everything. But it doesn’t work. I have nightmares even awake, spiritual unknown presences, both stimulants and depressors, together at the same time, no thoughts, no feelings, just keeping me down, beyond the ground.
Life sticks to me, I don’t know why, I don’t know where’s the stairway that leads me out of here. Now I’m awake, and angry again too, mad about me, mad about my self-attracted situation.
Today’s another chance, and I’m doing great this time, I’ll make it work from now until is time for me to go.
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