Time and I

The displacement of a body through a certain space requires time, depending on its mass and in relation to other massive objects that may alter its speed, and consequently, the distance traveled by that object.

Time and I have a tense relationship, which we know I cannot survive. 

Time revealed itself to me in its rhythm and blues. Time showed me how it is grouped in blocks of 6 and 5 years; and those blocks are also packed in bigger lapses of 28 years, mostly, because some 27-year blocks are intercalated. I learned this by calculating the terrestrial translation movements around the sun since the estimated date of birth of Jesus Christ, on December 25th, 2025 years ago now. 

Long story short, the last two blocks lasted, the first from 1970 to 1998 (28y), and the second from 1999 to 2025 (27y). And the next one starts this Sunday, January 4th, 2025, for another 28 years, beginning with a block of 6 years. The person I was before has to die tonight, for a new me come into my existence. I mourn the old me and forgive me for my past mistakes, by the grace of God who redeemed me from my sinful past. 

 I was looking closely at what I've done, and who I've been for the last 27 years, from my eyes rained tears of regret and sorrow for me, for what I missed, for what I've lost, for the wasted time and energy that has never been mine at all, and misused. "I won't see back and say 'If I only...' never again!", I said to myself. "I won't end this life saying 'If I only...', my Lord". Tonight I would prefer to die and be reborn to a new life.